difficulty

why are some of the simplest things the ones that get complicated so much?

at least that is the story of my life.

even composing this blog is difficult...what to put, what is too much to put. constantly second-guessing myself... and yet the thing that brings me back to simplicity is a nice tune that gets me introspective, course it takes the mood, the want...but the tune definitely helps.

still, peace eludes me. the constant war within that only gets shoved farther, never really being addressed.

sometimes i wonder if it will take an army to keep me on track. but an army always begins with one right?

travels

just so you know, i am back in texas...specifically tyler this week. i have left my home and great friends in kentucky and arrived early tuesday mornin. still kinda getting settled...be waiting for pics and stuff.


hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving

most of things

the challenge, the fight, maybe that is what entices me so much. to have someone push you, encourage you, challenge, uplift, test, soothe, spice, and laugh.

friends

the more time i spend by myself, the more i continue to reaffirm that i am definitely a group type person. one who feed off energy, but also need the group at times to drive and to get me to think of what i like and miss and want.

...but i say that on this side of it, and yet with corky and family movin in it is nice to have someone on property to joke with and chat with after patrick left.

still wonder if i am there yet...i mean i know i am not, but i wonder if i am far enough along...cause somethings got to happen one way or another.